This has been one hell of a year. In good and in bad too. So many emotions, so many feelings, so many breakthroughs, so many happy moments and so many disappointments, worries and sleepless nights.
There’s not really even a core point in writing this. I just wanted to come back to the writing I’ve been forsaken to survive from all this.
Life seems to be scattered fragments. Worry about dear ones. Tough decisions on who to meet and what risks to take. Or who not to meet and what risks not to take.
There have also been some very precious, beautiful moments. Growing daughter who has reached a way new level of independence without losing the love and attachment I cherish so much.
There’s yearning of loved ones, fear of losing, happiness of support, meaningful messages and drifting thought about what really matters the most.
There have been mental vacations, struggles within areas I didn’t even know existed before. Servers, emails, phone calls, communication breakdowns and communications that have really made the difference.
There have been morning coffees alone and morning coffees via Zoom. Morning coffees before sunrise, morning coffees in bed with my loved one and morning coffee with borrowed kids.
There’s half written poems, completely read books, sentences I’ve deleted.
Above all lingers the change. The new normal which is still unknown. Small, flickering thought that maybe I’ve changed too.
There are web stores and websites that have been opened, client cases that have been closed. Window shades that can be finally opened after the massive renovation. Doors I’ve intentionally closed.
In the refrigerator, there’s different kind of food than there used to be. There are makeup products that have been totally unused for months. There are Mother’s Day presents still not given and there are Christmas gifts received in May.
There are smiles on my phone screen and there are tears which I’ve shed when the night comes. There have been frantic instagram posting and there has been social media detox.
There has also been some yoga, meditation, long walks, and days when I’ve just let myself be. There’s a past I’ve been going back and things I’ve learned to let go of.
And then there’s future in which I walk with a whole new mental toolkit after all this. I don’t yet know how it’s going to be or who I actually am but I think I’m ready to enter.
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If you feel a bit scattered too, welcome to see the whole mess in my social media channels. 😉
Sometimes we forget what makes us spark and end up in the endless loop of mundane tasks which leave us exhausted and with feeling that we haven’t done anything. I have some thoughts about that and a small challenge for you today, dive in!
Sometimes it feels like the end but is actually the beginning. You cannot expect new things to happen if you’re not willing to let some old ones to go.
Find your creativity, gain more focus and just easily manipulate your brain (and ears) to function in specific ways? Besides just doing the work (which I highly recommend, stop procrastinating now!) there are several tools you can use to make it more efficient. My recent experiments have been with binaural beats.
Learning new skills and developing and discovering yourself is mainly privately done hard work but sometimes it helps to find some spark and inspiration from someone else too. I have taken several different workshops and courses during this year and last one and I think those might inspire you too.
Mood
This has been one hell of a year. In good and in bad too. So many emotions, so many feelings, so many breakthroughs, so many happy moments and so many disappointments, worries and sleepless nights.
There’s not really even a core point in writing this. I just wanted to come back to the writing I’ve been forsaken to survive from all this.
Life seems to be scattered fragments. Worry about dear ones. Tough decisions on who to meet and what risks to take. Or who not to meet and what risks not to take.
There have also been some very precious, beautiful moments. Growing daughter who has reached a way new level of independence without losing the love and attachment I cherish so much.
There’s yearning of loved ones, fear of losing, happiness of support, meaningful messages and drifting thought about what really matters the most.
There have been mental vacations, struggles within areas I didn’t even know existed before. Servers, emails, phone calls, communication breakdowns and communications that have really made the difference.
There have been morning coffees alone and morning coffees via Zoom. Morning coffees before sunrise, morning coffees in bed with my loved one and morning coffee with borrowed kids.
There’s half written poems, completely read books, sentences I’ve deleted.
Above all lingers the change. The new normal which is still unknown. Small, flickering thought that maybe I’ve changed too.
There are web stores and websites that have been opened, client cases that have been closed. Window shades that can be finally opened after the massive renovation. Doors I’ve intentionally closed.
In the refrigerator, there’s different kind of food than there used to be. There are makeup products that have been totally unused for months. There are Mother’s Day presents still not given and there are Christmas gifts received in May.
There are smiles on my phone screen and there are tears which I’ve shed when the night comes. There have been frantic instagram posting and there has been social media detox.
There has also been some yoga, meditation, long walks, and days when I’ve just let myself be. There’s a past I’ve been going back and things I’ve learned to let go of.
And then there’s future in which I walk with a whole new mental toolkit after all this. I don’t yet know how it’s going to be or who I actually am but I think I’m ready to enter.
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If you feel a bit scattered too, welcome to see the whole mess in my social media channels. 😉
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